A JOURNEY TO CARMEN’S LIFE

Well, this is it! 27th November! The day Twilight will be released in Malaysia. I have been waiting for ages, months for this day to arrive. I could have been having sleepless nights, praying for the days to pass faster. I might have been jumping around this very morning like a maniac. I would have been in front of the cinema waiting to go in and sit infront of the big screen and watch TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!! And yet, I am sitting right in front of the computer writing this…

All those hyper feelings are just images in my dreams every now and then. The day I have been waiting for so long, and now… a single word turned everything upside down including my mood. The moment I finished the 1^st book, the moment I learned that there’s a movie coming up base on the book, I was so excited ever to watch it. I wouldn’t want to miss it ever!! For all you know, I even had mind planning that I WILL watch the movie today no matter what.

For months and months I have been bragging and talking about the movie to my friends, family and even deep inside myself. I have gone totally nuts with the movie. And now, I can’t go. I even cried the moment I know that I never will have the chance to watch it on the big screen. Throughout my whole life now, this is the very first time I wanted SO MUCH to watch Twilight in cinema. You can say that is my only dream rite now. The puzzle that I have been working on for months had just shattered into pieces again. It felt like, I don’t have the mood to put those piece together again.

I felt so happy for those people who get to watch it today. From my perspective, I feel that they are way luckier than I am. People who don’t know me won’t really understand how I feel. They might think that I am nuts! To them, its just a movie! Well, its more than just a movie to me. For those people who knows me, they knew that I never like stepping my foot into the cinema. I never wanted always! This is like the first time I wanted so much to go to the cinema.

Right now, I can sense that I am sad and disappointed but, my facial expressions just couldn’t show it. I don’t know why. Maybe it hurt so deep that the pain can’t be felt anymore…

Well, if by any chance, luck is by my side, if I get to watch Twilight in cinema, even if I had to watch alone, I don’t mind… After all.

bella\’s lullaby

Two weeks of war had had ended. Now, I am left with only one more week of war. Next week. This week was the worst. Had all the paper two exams and it was killing me to revise two subjects a day!! All requires reading.. That’s so horrible. Luckily next week is only all those paper one plus civics and accounts paper two. At least I can relax a bit this weekend. Not going crazy anymore. Hahahha..

Well, on last Wednesday, I went online just to relief myself from revisions. Because I am doing my biology paper two only after recess the next day. Which means I have time to relax a bit. So, went online and serve the net to look for the twilight release date in Malaysia. At first they wanted to release it next year march but luckily they brought forward the date to 27 november this year!!! Although it delayed 6 days after the worldwide releasing date, I guess it is more bearable than having to wait for 3 months. Now, I would just have to wait for a month!! =D Can’t wait to get into the cinema to watch it.

PMR exams is finally over today. Those form 3 students are so lucky.. They can already enjoy themselves where I still have 1 more week of exams.. =( I started earlier than them, but still I end later than then. It’s so unfair!!! It is like 5 more days before my exams is totally over. Waiting for 5 days is like so long…

There’s so much I want and need to do after exams:

-wash school shoes (haven’t been washed like weeks or months)

-clear wardrobe

-watch movies

-read storybooks

-online

Well, today i went out to qbay together with mom, dad and aunt who came back from outstation. Aunt would like to do some shopping though before she flys off again next week. We shop till evening and decided to have teatime break at secret recipe. There, the story begins…

We saw a couple sitting next to our table. It makes me curious when both of them did not communicate throughout the time they are waiting for their meal to be served. The guy was looking down, so as the girl. I move my head back abit to see whether the guy was texting someone on his phone or not, surprisingly.. no. They were both so quite and the condition did not seem happy at all. More like a angry plus sad situation they are facing.

When the food is served, they still did not talk. That’s weird now alright. Then the girl start to say something(i couldn’t hear cos i am too far away and it’s quite noisy to be heard) and she’s getting pretty unhappy as she goes on. Then the guy was calmly talking to her too. Then, i saw the girl started crying. To me, i feel it is most probably a breakup scene now. Then i sort of lip-read the guy saying in mandarin (please don’t be like that) maybe fearing that it will attract the public’s attention i suppose or he might not want her to feel bad though. Then she answered (what u mean don’t be like that) and maybe start accusing the guy that it’s his fault she’s crying now i guess.

Later, the girl grab the plate and eat all the fries leaving behind the piece of chicken i guess for the guy. She wiped her tears, stood up and walked away. That guy just act normal and continue eating. The end!

To my preference of watching that drama, i think the guy maybe hook up with another girl without her gf’s knowledge and too bad, so sad that she found out. Either she pretend to not know it or they had earlier quarreled bout it. Then, the guy finally decided to discuss and solve this matter today. He might plan to tell her that he choose the other girl over her and maybe apologize. Then, break up. That’s my theory. =D

But, no offence, it is so unwise to pick a public place like secret recpe in qbay to have a breakup session. They should go to somewhere that has less crowd like maybe.. TGI Friday though.. people who are ‘kaypoh’ like ME will not take my eyes of them u see. It won’t be nice to have someone watching your break up scene right? Hahaha!! By the way, the guy was not bad looking.. Maybe a little bit too short for a guy. I have nothing much to comment about the girl.. Normal..

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26^th August 08

I haven’t had the time to write about what happened few days
back. I sort of reread the vampire book, Twilight after I’ve finished the
reading it the 1^st time on Saturday night. Well, that book was
really fantastic. It was like a drug to me. The strongest drug ever though.
Hahahaha…

When School reopens, I borrowed the 2^nd book, New
Moon and I took 1 day to read it. I didn’t really keep track on how long I took
to read it. Anyway, I was actually speed reading so that I could get to the
ending fast. Well, like wei yen said, it was not as nice as the 1^st
book. I only liked partially the starting and the ending of the book. The
middle part was quite boring… I finished it at around

1.12 am

, I go all the way until the end.

Anyway, today was a special sudden holiday. It is not stated
in the calendar. For

Penang

state only I guess. I am not
to sure because I haven’t been paying much attention to the daily news. Usually
I would jus flip through the papers and see if any attractive news titles catch
my eyes. Since it’s a holiday, I spend the whole day rereading New Moon! I
sounded insane to my sis, but I don’t care much though. This time, I try to
read word by word. Trying to catch back the parts that I overlooked totally at
the ‘pemerian’ (description) of the story. I managed to finish it in about 9
hours. So, for both books, I’ve read twice. I can say these books are the most
tempting book to me ever. I haven’t been rereading other books besides the
Mediator series. But I would give a higher rating to these vampire books
compared to the mediator books.

As I was saying in the last post, I remembered that I have
to crack my brain for essay writing. I decided to write about the challenges of
a school leaver. Well, the truth tells me that I suck at factual writings so I
gave up after my brain was jammed when I was about to start the 2^nd
paragraph. I put my thoughts in writing about bittersweet memories. As I
continue to write, I became more inspired to write longer and longer until I
finally ends at the 8^th page of my exercise book (counting from the
page I start my story). I was so damned shocked how I could possibly drag that
long… Well, I could feel that my tenses are all a mess and the story sounded
stupid to me. I would just have to wait till my English teacher marks it and
see if he’ll strangle me for writing so long…

And, anyway, before I forget. It’s Cynthia’s birthday today.
I prepared the present to give her today in school but it turned out that today
is a holiday, so I guess I have to give her tomorrow. It’s from me and Jing
Min. We hope she will like our present. So,

HAPPY BIRHTDAY/HAPPY SWEET 16, CYNTHIA!!!!

21 August 08

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I haven’t been updating my blog for a long time since even
before exam starts. Well, partially its because of my laziness though.. =D

Well, or sometimes I do have stuffs to write about but I
either did not have the time to write it or I did not come online. So, I
decided to write all my stuffs ad putting the particular date for every blog I
write on that very same day.. I might compile it all together and when I go
online, I will post all of it! That should do it..

Now, I would like to do some flashbacks about the stuffs I
am going to write. Hmm….

Let start with exams. Well, for the previous exam, I am not
really prepared for it as you can say I only started revising like a few days
before the exam or possibly a week before hand. In my mind, I am really tempted
to start revision early but the other side of my brain tells me there’s still
plenty of time to relax now.. Well, it seems that I listened to the part of my
brain which tells me to take things slow and relax. Luckily I made it through..
As in I managed to finish whatever topics that I am suppose to focus on for the
exam. However, on the last day of exam, when it finally ended, I don’t feel
extra happy or relief. I just don’t know why.. Is it because that I have done exams
for like 12 years in my life and I sort of get adapted to examinations?? Or was
it just because it wasn’t a major exam like UPSR, PMR or SPM?? I have totally
no idea!!

I felt that’s not the stupidest part of exams when you
compare it to the results. Well, we have 1 more week of schooling before we had
our 1 week holidays. Some teachers did a really great job for marking the
papers super fast that they took like 2 days to mark it! Well, if I am not
mistaken, our last paper on Friday was modern maths. By next Monday itself, 1^ST
PERIOD OF THE DAY, she had finished marking the papers!! That was so shocking!!
She then called 1 by 1 of us to go get our paper. When she called my name, I
was still blurr as I am helping out to arrange the tables after the exams.
While arranging, I realize that she called my name, I think, twice or thrice
before I quickly ran to the front to get my paper. She did not hand me the
paper as I thought she would as she’s still looking at the pile of exam papers
in her hand. So, I spotted an exam paper with big red marks written 100% on it.
I wasn’t focusing on the name in the paper because it never crossed my mind
that I would obtain a 100% for my modern maths. I was still blurr and I looked
closely at the paper and try to see the name clearly. Well, to my surprise, it
was my paper! I got 100% for it! I was still kinda blurr and also happy as I
walked back to my place. I am still surprise that I got full marks for that
paper. I mean I really couldn’t believe it!! Seriously!! By the way, during
that paper, I was having a slight stomach ache and I couldn’t really
concentrate on doing my best plus it’s the last paper so I couldn’t care less
about it. I did not even bother to check it properly but I still did flip here
and there to show myself that I did check… a bit! Its surprising that I did not
make any mistakes. Usually I would make some minor mistakes when I check my
papers for the 2^nd time. Maybe its my lucky day… Hahahaha!!!

The rest of my exam marks so far is quite ok.. Just that I am
not really satisfied with my physics… Made 1 mistake and all are related
therefore I lose lotsa marks because of 1 silly mistake.. sigh..

Enough about exams. Lets go to… Holidays! Before the
holidays, I borrowed a book from my friend to read throughout the holidays..
Out of my expectations, I finished it in like 1 and a half days!! Well, there’s
the second book for that story so I gotta wait till school reopens to borrow
the 2^nd book. =( Well, to ease my temptation, I decided to read it
for the 2^nd time. By the way, the book is brilliant enough and it
definitely is worth rereading. There’s nothing much to talk about anymore
though.. Just hoping the holidays pass faster so that I can read the 2^nd
book and the followings..

I shall start another topic now. About people. Now is
already in the middle of our 2nd term in school. I realize that not only the
weather and time change, people around are also undergoing some changes despite
major or minor. At the earlier stage, I feel I can still bear with it by closing
one eye. But as time passes, I feel that things are not like it used to be
anymore. Their attitude and personalities are far different from the 1^st
day I get to know them. I don’t mean a person shouldn’t change at all. At least
some change from bad to good. I doubt I’ve seen anyone in that category yet.
Most of them did the opposite. I meant most! Not all! There are still some of
them that managed to remain unchanged or at least improved which was good in a
way. For those who had changed, I feel that we are no longer as close as we
used to be and I couldn’t bring myself to understand them anymore. The worst
is, some did give the sudden cold shoulder out of nowhere. The most obvious
thing I noticed was these people either they think too highly of themselves
that they ignore you or you are too small to be seen through their eyes. Well,
it started with an invisible line but now I am seeing a big, thick line between
me and those people. Sigh. There’s not much that I can do. Just go with the
flow and act according to the condition I suppose. =l

Well, 2 weeks ago, we celebrated kim mei’s birthday at her house. After school in the evening about seven lidat, i went to her house. I thought i was the earliest as I reached there about 5 mins before seven. Out of my expectation, kelly and michelle were already there!! Hahaha.. Then, the 1st thing i did was, conquer her laptop!! Hahaha.. We went and invade people’s profiles here and there and we did some commenting on their pictures! That was fun.

group pic 2

I was kinda busy nowadays.. I have stuffs to write about also i have to postpone it..
Last week, i borrowed a book from my school library.. It was The Complete Work Of William Shakespeare. The 1st thing i saw the book, i remembered what Pn. Irene said bout this book. I went and borrowed it. I did that mostly because the book was new and i want to be the 1st borrower. Hahaha!! That book is the unabridged version. U won’t exactly understand a single thing cos it is some Victorian English my dad said. The english that is so ‘tunggang-langgang’ only those experts and those who loves literature can understand.. I can’t really make out what its all about. Roughly i can la but it was no fun already if you can’t understand trully though.

I am so scared la… Exams are in a week’s time.. I didn’t start anything yet!! I don’t know la how.. Plus yesterday i got semi-diarrhoea. I though it would be ok today.. But it doesn’t seems alright to me.. On second thought, I keep visualising stuffs that are, i don’t know..maybe sounds stupid to people. I scared i have tapeworm in my intestines!!! Waaaaaaaaaa……… I very scared la!!! I have had enough with worms!!! !st ringworm, now a tapeworm to be.. Please don’t let it be true.. I asked my mom to buy me some dewormed medicine.. She said she will buy tomorrow.. Don’t know la.. Aiyo….

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Yesterday, I just found out that I have this ringworm at the
corner of my left eye! All the while I thought it was just an ordinary rash. Well,
I did got a shock when my aunt said that I have this ringworm, I thought what
will happen to me if there’s really a ‘worm’ below my skin and its beside my
eye!! It is actually a type of disease she said or rather an infection of some
fungus which penetrates the skin. After hearing the explanation, I felt better
but still kind of worried. Actually I had it before once, I think early of the
year and it was gone when I put some moisturizing cream. When it was ‘healing’ I
just left it to heal by itself. I guess not all the bacteria were killed so that’s
why I got it again now.

So, now I have to put this medicine which really makes my
eye watery when I spread it at the ringworm part. I think it is as strong as
some ‘tiger balm’ reliever. But after a while it actually felt ok. Just got to
suffer a few minute… Haiz…

Besides having that stupid ringworm, I don’t know since when
I’ve bitten the side of my left cheek and I guess I’ve really bitten it quite
hard and the mark is still there. I thought it would be just like the normal
times I’ve bitten before which will heal quickly. So, as I am lazy also, I did
not put medicine for it. I wanted it to heal naturally though… Hahaha…

But, after 2 days, it really never shows any progress of
recovery. Not at all. In fact, it got worse. Then, it left me no choice but to
put the medicine finally. I put for like 3 days already, and it seems to either
got worse or stays the same. I don’t know. I think it’s going to turn into a
blister.

One thing I hate having blisters or mouth injuries is that
it will make me really difficult to chew my food! Because of this, I have to
chew all my food using the right part of my mouth. It felt uncomfortable and
difficult to eat. Anyway, I am not used to chewing with the right part of my
mouth. I am more used to chewing with left. I just wonder how long it will take
to heal. I just hope it heal fast. Both!! The ringworm and my cheek.

Today we went to Penang Bowl for our bowling class. This is like the 5^th class since the starting of the year until now. We are supposed to have it once every 3 weeks on Mondays, but it seems that during those Mondays before, we couldn’t make it. So, we had to replace it on other days..

Well, my score today as expected, decreased from last week’s score.. I took my ‘lucky ball’ (the 3 holes fit nicely to my fingers) but dunno why.. I think today lack of power.. Hahahahaha..

Anyway, after the game, we sat around for like an hour talking before returning to school. Then there’s a guy named Meng played next to the lane where we are sitting there chatting. Well, at 1^st I see wrongly.. I thought he put Keng (terror). So, I said to myself that this fellow here must think that he himself is soooooo terror that he is soooooo thick skin to put that name. But when I look closely again, I realized it that I was wrong.. Hahahaha… By the way, he looked quite good looking.. Just that maybe he is kinda short for a guy. But he played bowling really terror. He got 4 strikes for the 1^st 4 bowls… His scores are like double the average score I used to get.. Or even more!!!!

That was amazing.. How I wish I can play like that… Hahahaha… That will probably have to wait for years.

Tomorrow I don’t have to stay back cos there’s no tkd class!!! So happy.. And I suppose to stay back for Angklong practice to perform for prize-giving day but teacher said it’s to little people so don’t have to stay back.. Whee!!!!!!!!!!!! Can go back at

2pm

tomorrow!!! Yay!!!!!